AKON
AKON
Blackthelion is more than a person,Blackthelion is a Movement!
WHAT LIES BENEATH - "A ROAR IN THE WIND."
03 Aug 2007
ALL MY LIFE THERE'S BEEN THIS EPISODE WHERE I'VE HAD TO BATTLE WITH DEPRESSION WITHOUT ANY MEDICATION AND AT TIMES I FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING BIGGER. LIKE IT'S GROWING BEYOND MY CONTROL. THINGS I USE TO LIKE TO DO I HATE TO DO! MY ATTENTION SPAN IS SHORTER AND I FIND IT HARDER TO BE PRESENT WHEN SOME PEOPLE ARE CONVERSATING WITH ME. THE ONLY REASON WHY I NEVER WANTED TO ACCEPT THE DRUGS WAS BECAUSE OF THE SIDE AFFECTS. I MEAN I WONT BE DEPRESSED BUT I COULD POSSIBLY HAVE BRAIN HEMORHAGES ETC. SO IN THIS CAGE I'VE TRIED SMOKING WEED IN ORDER TO CALM MY MIND AND NOT LET CERTAIN FEELINGS PUSH ME INTO THAT PLACE. IT WORKED FOR AWHILE BUT THEN I NEEDED MORE. I WANTED TO FEEL LOOSE AND FREE AND WILD LIKE THAT PERSON I WAS WHEN I WAS HIGH. I COULDN'T SEE WHAT I LOOKED LIKE TO OTHERS AND I REALLY DIDN'T CARE . I JUST WANTED TO FEEL BETTER. THIS CAGE IS COLD, LONELY AT TIMES EVEN THOUGH OTHERS ARE ALWAYS AROUND. I GET TIRED OF PACING THIS SAME PATH AND THE ONLY THING CHANGING IS TIME. IM GETTING OLDER NOW. I CANT KEEP SUPPRESSING THIS IMBALANCE OF MY MIND. EVENTUALLY LEFT SIDE MUST AGREE WITH RIGHT SIDE, I CANT CONTINUE TO LIVE WITH THIS LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP WITHIN MYSELF! I GOTTA DO IT...I GOTTA ACCEPT THE DRUGS AND THE SIDE EFFECTS. UNTIL NOW GOD HAS BEEN THE CURE TO THE SYMPTOM THAT HAS BECOME ME BUT WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WHEN IT FEEL LIKE JUST BELIEVING IS NO LONGER ENOUGH? GOD, I NEED TO SEE MORE, TO BE MORE, GAIN AND CONTROL MORE! FINALLY SEE A RETURN ON INVESTMENT IM TIRED OF HEADACHES AND HARD TIMES. WHERE ARE MY FRIENDS? I DONT SEE THEM NO MORE. WHERE ARE MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS? I DONT SEE THEM NO MORE. BUT BEFORE I COULD GIVE UP I WAS EMBRACED BY STRANGERS. I FELT A TEMPORARY PARDON FROM MY CAGE. A COMMERCIAL BREAK IN HEAVEN'S MOVIE. A MOMENTS PEACE. JUST ENOUGH TIME TO GET A SECOND WIND AND TRY AGAIN.--BLACKTHELION
One of the most tragic events in life is that a lot of people give up just only an inch before they achieve their winning line. When we start doing something we start with hope. We start with wish that we will finish what we mean to do and will enjoy the results we want. However, we get discouraged when we see no result after we have been doing that for a few times. This depends on people. Some give up when they almost achieve it. Some give up when they have done that for a couple of times. Surprisingly, a lot of people give up when they haven't even start. Here are some tips that may be useful for the ones who don't want to quit.
1. Set up your goal and know why you want it. This is very fundamental and essential to the process of success. You need to know where you are going and why you go there. No meaning or motivation will be in your mind if you don't. Also, we need the time frame for your goal so that we do not wander aimlessly.
2. Know what we have to do in order to achieve it. We need some action plans in order to bear the result. Set up your yearly, monthly and daily plan for your implementation. We will not achieve anything if our plan is in the air. Write it down and pursue what we need to do.
3. Mingle with the achievers. Surround yourselves with the person who has his own goal. If you can not immediately find real people, you may use books, tapes, CD or movie as your reference for success. Find anything that can inspire you to keep going. Later on, you will attract achievers into your life if you focus on what we want long enough.
4. Avoid talking to negative sources of comments. Refuse to accept the opinions that you can not do it. You will definitely hear skeptical remarks form many people especially the ones that are closed to you. In order to do not have those opinions affect our actions, avoid them. People tend to give up easy and they want you to be one of them. Although they are your love ones, you still need to be firm on your stand. The same as in our third tips, the negative sources do not have to be from real people. They can come from all type of media. We need to avoid them all if we want success.
5. Put all your heart when you take actions. Constant actions will form up your destiny. To master your destiny is to be good at what you are doing. And it will not happen if you do not do it with your whole heart. Do the best you can. When you are at your best, the power within you will flow over to your task and you will start to enjoy it when it is in place. Review your performance periodically so that you know if you are on the right track. The biggest waste of time is when you are good at what you are not supposed to do. Beware of that.
6. Schedule your rest time. Life can be frustrated if you do not have your own time to refresh your mind. This is the time when you are clear from everything including the work you have done. Be there when you are at your play time. May be with your family or kids. Do not worry on your progress or results. They will be improved if you have more focus along the way. Focus will not come that strong if you do not let yourself to not focus in your leisure time.
7. Remind yourself on the sweet fruits of your success. You can have your reminders posted on the wall that you can see often. Some even carry around the check at the amount of money they want in their wallets. There are many ways to do it and visualization is one of the best. Visualize you success daily will enhance you possibilities. It is proven that what you focus on will attract what you want according to the law of attraction. When you visualize, you see yourself as you have achieve what you want in front of your eyes. It will send strong signal to your subconscious mind and it will work on your focus and attraction. You may want to use some background music to boost up your attraction while you visualize. Attraction Accelerator can be one of your choices.
Most of the people give up too easily. Some give up even before they start doing something. The seven tips here is to help you on the process and not give up until you succeed.
1) They’re just as horny as you. Scientists are always citing new studies that men think about sex once a minute while women think about it once a day. I don’t know who they’re polling, but this is bullshit. Truth is, just because gals lack testosterone doesn’t mean They don’t enjoy a good lay. They just don’t want to get branded as easy. Believe me, the more chaste and innocent a girl looks, the more likely she is to own some fuzzy handcuffs and a Theyll-worn Kama Sutra.
2) They do talk and compare notes with our girlfriends. OK, so maybe our conversations aren’t quite as frank as those on Sex and the City. They’re not going to kiss and tell everything; They’ll leave that up to Cosmo. But for the sake of our mental health, They have to talk – or rant, or rave, as the case may be – about our love lives (or lack thereof). Size may come up; contrary to what They say, it does matter to some extent. But it’s much more about how you work what your momma gave ya.
3) They think the penis must be God’s joke to man. C’mon, you can’t tell me it’s exactly an aesthetic work of art. It’s just…funny looking. Granted, vaginas may not be much better, but at least they’re not out in the open and free to sway in the breeze. Besides, you don’t see any Georgia O’Keefe paintings of male genitalia, now, do you?
4) They don’t ‘get’ porn. What exactly is the appeal of clicking with one hand while you ‘double click your mouse’ with the other? Don’t get me wrong; women have elaborate fantasies. But our versions are mostly that – imaginary scenarios existing solely in our heads, or perhaps a bodice-ripper romance novel in which the only picture is on the cover: a Fabio-like hunk in an open, flowing blouse embraces a voluptuous Theynch in front of a castle/lake/seashore/etc. They aren’t as dependent on visual stimulation, and They sure as hell don’t want to see www.hotsororitygirlsgettinggangbanged.com. And don’t get me started on the whole guy fascination with lesbians.
5) They’re not above embracing the double standard. Women had to fight for decades to earn the same rights as men. In America, They may have finally won that fight legally, but just because They demand equal pay in our jobs doesn’t mean They’re going to jump for the bill on a date or attempt to move our sofa single-handedly. Call it our revenge for having to Theyar corsets for several centuries.
6) They created the metrosexual; They just don’t want to sleep with him. For decades, women demanded that men become more domestic, more sensitive, and better able to relate to our emotional needs. Theyll, now They’ve finally got what They wanted, and They’ve realized that it’s not that fun to Theyar the pants all the time in a relationship. Call us hypocrites, but how can you feel feminine and sexy when your boy takes longer to get ready than you do? How can you respect a guy who cries during sex, a Disney movie, or a Hallmark commercial? You just can’t. This is why nice guys sometimes do finish last.
7) They’re crazy. Oh wait, that one’s not really a secret.
8) Society has trained us to hate - or at the very least distrust - you. From infancy, girls are told in various subtle and not-so-subtle ways that anyone with a penis can’t be trusted: “Men are only after one thing.” By the time a gal hits puberty, she’s convinced that most men are slimeballs who only smile at her because they’re imagining her naked; by the time she goes to college, she carries mace on her key ring and has memorized the top 5 date rape drugs and their warning signs. Thanks to Theyll-meaning mothers, after-school specials, and a few too many Oprah reruns, I’m surprised They aren’t all Theyaring chastity belts and kneeing every guy They meet in the ‘nads.
9) They don’t really know what the hell They want, but They’ll pretend to be relationship experts. Gold-diggers aside, most young women aren’t necessarily chomping at the bit to get married. In fact, some of us are downright terrified of commitment. But dammnit, They’re devoted watchers of Dr. Phil, and They’re determined to keep the gender stereotype as the stable nurturer in a relationship. So be prepared to talk about your feelings.
10) They want to see you happy. Whether it’s asking you to “fix” our stuck cabinet door or set up our speaker system, They’re happy to give you an ego boost now and then. Sometimes it’s just easier to play the damsel in distress, smile, and nod than fight with you over the best way to debug a PC. And take note: this eager-to-please attitude extends to the bedroom, too, so long as you reciprocate.
intransitive senses
: to run in disorder
transitive senses : to fill or cover with scattered or disordered things that impede movement or reduce effectiveness -- often used with up
ALL of our lives were shaped by clutter in some form or another. it's that clutter from our early childhood that shaped who we are and what we believe. love,life,religion,sex,money,relationships,friendships etc. all shaped by the early clutters taught to us by other people and our environments.
AKON
AKON
"sometimes you have to go a little insane in order to stay sane."
-some nut job
MY BLOGS ARE LOOSELY WRITTEN IN THE "MOVIE HERO' STYLE STORY LINE BUT NOT CHARACTERS ETC."
IN THERAPY;SESSION 1
It was one of those days and i was sitting outside of my mind kinda wondering about things that most people would consider pointless. strangely enough its those things that appeal to me. the current question i was pondering on was >>IS THERE SUCH A THING AS EMOTIONAL CHEATING? AND IF SO THEN, IF TWO PEOPLE ARE BOTH TYPING DIRTY AND FLIRTY WITHOUT ANY OTHER FORM OF CONTACT BESIDES INTERNET COMMUNICATION, WOULDN'T THAT BE CLASSIFIED AS CONSENSUAL THINKING? I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I ASKED MYSELF AND FELT MAYBE I SHOULD ASK YOU TO. WHAT DO YOU THINK DOC?
